I wrote this a couple years ago when my husband was deployed and now, I have fellow military spouses missing their lovies on deployment/TDY. So, I am posting this for them and for all the military spouses who sacrifice, but also the man and woman who serve our great nation. THANK YOU!!!
Today was really hard without my husband. I needed him here today and he is not. I really felt the tug on the time gap that has grown between us, so much has happened and so much time has passed, and he is still so far away. Yet modern technology has fooled me into thinking he’s right here with me. Which makes his physical absence not only more noticeable but harder. When I hear his voice, it makes me want to hold him, when I see his pixelated grin, it makes me wish for a kiss. When I hear his laugh, it makes me yearn for it to be accompanied by his hands around my waist, holding me ever so tightly. But none of this can happen for he is not here. He can’t hold me, kiss me or even wipe the tears I shed when my head reminds my heart that it was just a phone call, a picture or even just a video. Because while my eyes and my heart may fall prey to this trickery, my head is no fool. I go to sleep thinking about his eyes, I wake up thinking about his smile. And I remind myself that we just got one day closer to the next living embrace, and I try to remember what it feels like to have his strong arms wrapped around me and his warmth surrounding me. And my heart sighs and I begin my day! Holding onto that memory, that feeling every second of the next twenty-four hours.
"Then once more I lay down remembering your eyes and your smile from our late-late night talks. I miss you so much, but how lucky I am to have someone to miss, I fall asleep looking forward to our next kiss. Every day like the one before, I know he loves me, but I love him more. I love him now, I loved him then. I always have and I always will. Come home soon and safe!!! XOXO"
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